Yeah so just when I am trying to get back into my art...my computer has like died. I have only had it for 4 months so I am pretty mad. Gonna probably have to send it in to get fixed. Basically it started with some just random freezes on rare occasion. Then it got worse and worse and worse...and now it's gotten to the point to where I can not run my computer for more than 2 minutes before the hard drive goes "click" and it freezes. *sigh* I dunno what to do cause I have done what I can think of...So yeah, hence they lack of art and all Hope everyone is doing well and I hope to be back at some point soonish!

So to begin this journal I will say this will be a sad one. First off, I have been sick for four days. And i just keep getting worse and worse. I went to the doctor and they gave me antibiotics, so hopefully that will help. But so far it hasn't really done anything and just getting worse.

Also...this week I lost one of my best friends ever. I'm doing okay. We are all taking it pretty well. But still we are all just in shock. It was so sudden...but then again I guess that's how it usually is. His name was Justin. I've known him since 4th grade or so. We grew up together as friends all the way through high school where we were really good friends. Afterwards we went our seperate ways to college, but we still kept in touch every now and then and were able to see each other on occasion.

As far as what happened....well we really do not have anything definite yet. Basically he just did not wake up. We think it was his diabetes (which he had really bad), but his insulin pump seemed to be functional. So really we are not sure at this point. Should be at least 6 weeks for the toxicology report to come back.

The hardest thing though for me...has not really been just dealing with the loss...although that has been very hard...but actually calling people that I know knew him well and telling them the news. That was the hardest thing ever. It's like "hey! I haven't talked to you in ages! How are you?! Good...well...I have some bad news..." And so yeah. You can imagine.

Sorry if I'm bothering people with this journal, but it's just helping me to get my head straight right now. Justin will be truly missed. He was one of the best friends anyone could ever have and it was a complete honor to know him. He always treated everyone so well, and was always there when you needed a helping hand.


If everyone would just please keep the family and friends of Justin in your prayers and thoughts. Things seem to happen when you least expect it. Cherish every second with those friends of yours that you know are super good friends. Cause you never know when something will happen. Life is unpredictable. I guess I knew that already, but I relearned it the hard way this week.

I probably will not be on here much for a while. Not that I have been able to be lately anyways. But even less so. Just wanted to let you guys know what was going on and all. I love you all and thank you for your support!

Howdy everyone! Yep I'm still alive! I haven't really been on here hardly at all the past few months. It's just been really hard for me to find time too. But I want everyone to know I am still here and I still read comments and reply when I get a chance. Hopefully one day I will have some new art up

I hope everyone is having a GREAT Christmas holiday! As for me, I bought myself a new computer for Christmas I love it so much And now I have my own computer in my room now. This was one of the criteria for me before I completely move out, lol.

So just wanted to wish everyone a happy holiday! 'Tis the season to be jolly afterall